Through the Looking-Glass

I cannot believe that in France, my own country, the country of humans rights, the gay marriage is in danger.

HELLO ? IS THERE SOMEONE HERE ?

WE ARE IN 2013 PEOPLE. 

And 50 years later, everyone will think that we were completely retarded…

Oh wait, this is already the case.

Just took to much anxiolytics last night (again).

And this morning, I’m a fucking zombie. I can’t even stand up. 

When the fuck will I stop acting like a stupid jerk ?

Yesterday,

I was at my mother and step father’s home to look after my 5 years old brother during their absence.

I have a nervous breakdown in front of him. He just made a little stupid thing and I don’t know why I reacted this way. I love him so, so much. I try to protect him from the quarrels of my mother and my step father. I want him to be happy (and my other brother and sister too), and I am really upset that he has to live, with some exceptions, the same thing I lived when my parents were married. It literally breaks me. This little child didn’t ask to be on this Earth. 

Well, I was screaming and crying, I totally lost my self control, and I vomited at least 2 months of anxiety. He was scared, sat on the sofa, with all his cuddly toys and didn’t move. 

After this, I apologized, but I know it’s not enough and he has been hurt. I feel so terribly guitly, and I hate myself. I’m a true piece of shit, a selfish over-dramatic whore.