When I was a child, I imagined myself at 20, and I thought I will be strong, happy, self confident.
What a joke…
This year, I turned 20, and I never feel so scared, lost, insecure in my whole life.
Mirror, Mirror, on my wall, I want to be pretty and thin.
Mirror, Mirror, if I starve myself, at least I'll be beautiful. Forget my health.
Mirror, Mirror, if I cut my wrist, will I finally feel like I exist?
Mirror, Mirror, don't you see? What you show is ruining me.
This is my outlet. This is the ugly truth.
Everything I cannot say in real life.
I am so exhausted to be me.
H: 5'9" / 178cm.
CW: Always too much. BMI : Fat.
LW: 108lb / 49kg. BMI : 15.5.
